It's her birthday!

This is Nandini. She used to be my roommate back in one of the many days at the biggest prick of a hostel- Kalyan Kendra. Now I know you cannot see her face properly and it doesn't matter because she hates attention of the paparazzi-likes-kind. And I'm definitely one of her much-annoying paparazzos! She is probably gonna kill me for this too. But maybe today shall be exceptional. It is her birthday, after all. Haaappy Birthday!

Since this post began really randomly, I have no idea how to begin adequately or what to say but may be I could start to tell you of her many exceptional qualities:

1. She will tell you like it is...oh,believe me,exactly like it is.
2. She has no hold-ups, emotional or superficial.
3. She loves Bono and Zakir passionately.
4. She loves wild life and Animal Turf.
5. If it's somebody she loves or something she loves, she will guard it more fiercely than a young mother-tigress.
6. She thrives on gossip. She has been known to hang upside down from her bunk bed at the hostel while straining to hear tidbits of shouting-matches between our warden's husband and son, from an open window and with of course, no care for her life.
7. She inspires me! Truly. She can inspire anyone, she's an awesome teacher.
8. She sees through your phoniness.
9. She loves her space and keeping in touch with someone really undermines her unique attitude and style.
10. She pretends to not care but she cares very,very much indeed.
11. She teaches you new bad words, language being no barrier.
12. She can love with unconditional abandon.
13. She is a great room-mate for the most unconventional reasons.
14. She is completely unconventional.
15. She's coolio!
16. She.....Oh well, I could go on and on, let me just say that I love her so very much and I really miss her like hell! Being with her is like being on a consistent trip and always in a very good way.

A Diary Entry-Sorts...

I think that I’m finally facing the many monsters in my closet. I mean, last night (15-04, for the records) for the first time in two weeks or more, I slept with the lights off. I don’t know if it was my electricity bill of last month which propelled me to do so or sheer bravery in the face of invisible monsters. I’m not freaking myself out silly over the lack of a job, a boyfriend… The latter half is something that I’ve honestly hoped would start chasing me than me chasing whoever the hell he is. And wherever he might be. Residing in the cool Bermudas or the depths of Egypt or among the structures at Greece… I like to be optimistic! I’m finally gonna take Gabe off the wall and will start playing him today. I’ve got the chords to ‘I’m yours’ by Jason Mraz. I still remember C, G, Am but F’s gonna be a tough cookie to break. My finger-tips have been far too delicate for a long time now. I’m meeting Qyara after a long time today… Can’t wait to hear more stories of Akansha, and discuss how romantic Edward Cullen is. I’ve got her hooked on to the Twilight Series too. It feels good to spread the love. Okay, I need to shower before I meet her so adios, invisible friends. You know I love you!

Later (The Next Day) -----

We went to the Beach! : ) I haven’t been to a beach in so long and it felt good to be there. Being at the beach is definitely a healthy feeling, the glittery and gritty sand, the sea-spray, the sky, the clouds, the birds, the breeze etc. really make you feel good. I showed Qyara the cool Accent feature that we have on our cameras and we had fun experimenting with it. We sat till the sunset but it was really difficult to capture the orange sun in a pretty picture as it gradually disappeared into the foamy sea and it made me wish I had an SLR or a really high-definition camera just for the same.

And she had the tenth installment of the Princess Diaries, so she lent it to me, I was super-excited about it and I still am. I hope Michael and Mia get back together cuz J.P, her new boyfriend is a shithead!

The Princess Diaries is an amazing series, and yeah, it pretty much seems like a book for teens, it is to an extent, but hello, even older people can read it too. I mean, Meg Cabot wrote the Series, and she isn’t exactly a teen so you can’t feel ashamed if you’re 23 and reading it just cuz it makes you happy. Some of you can even relate to Mia – She’s a shy and awkward teen with a fierce love to write and make a difference. She worries about the silliest things but it makes you laugh because you know you’ve been there, too! I know I do. Most of us are really awkward while growing up and I feel that, even now and I think I’ll always be that girl who hates attention of any kind, who loves to write and just be the same person. It’s always been a different kind of popularity I hope to attain, more of making a difference or being passionate about something and doing it right, like I’m generally very deathly afraid of crowds and public speaking but if it were my Rosecraft Ideas I had to talk about or Global Warming, that’s the kind of stuff I can talk about without feeling like I’m going to die or disappear into the ground. Anyway, I’m digressing…. I haven’t written or should I specifically say, hand-written in my actual journal for so long. In fact, I’ve started writing here more than there. And this is not totally a public journal but it makes me happy to write here and it’s not the fact that I would like my friends to read it, in fact very few people even know I write here but it’s more of the fact that it makes you feel nice when strangers read it and share their thoughts with you which is why it is also amazing to bump into really cool blogs by other awesome writers. : )

Anyway, before I headed home last night, I met Bouncie at Andheri St and we chatted for quite a while before leaving for home, it was nice to meet her and just talk since she’s been busy with work otherwise and she somehow looks really pretty every time I see her or maybe her hair-cut always makes her look fresh or something. We had milkshakes and discussed our lives pure 22 style!

P.S. Btw, Michael and Mia did get back together and it's been an awesome finish to the series! :)

You, Your Screen, Your PC, The Internet, WWW.

Dear You,

Hi! How have you been? I'm pretty afraid that I've fucked things up with a good friend. Not sure though, but I really, really hope not. I have just 6 grand left in my account. I wish I were walking at Marine Drive now....Lord knows how I'd like to feel the Sea-Spray on my face. My head hurts. I miss having real, personal e-mails in my inbox. It's been long since I've even received any unofficial letters. My best friend, Mi promised she'd write me one today and then she tells me she couldn't find any paper at home. Funny,huh? Oh, I have to tell you this funny thing that happened to me on the train. So I tell this lady on the train that there's an insect on her kurta, she smiles at me and I thought she'd brush it off and thank me (fat chance but wait, I'm spoiling it), instead she flicks it off right back at me and in my head, I'm laughing at how fricking funny-strange it is! Luckily, it wasn't a scary insect else I would have flicked it back at her and scurried off. What a weirdo, right? Funny way to say thanks, Lady.

And they stopped selling those cool earring wire things at Hobby Idea...They said no one bought them but I used to! :( The saleslady told me I'd get it at Buleshwar or something.

Have you heard Love etc by Pet Shop Boys....it's an amazing trance-pop haunting kind of song...very pop-art in its sound, even though pop-art is more see-able than intangible, I think you can almost hear it in this song! Check it out.

I've been horribly and irreversibly wrong about something that it makes me wanna cry and at the same time, I'm smiling at how freaking foolish I've been, as now whilst I type this to you, I chat with the afore-mentioned friend and nothing's fucked except the stuff on the inside of my head. I've been a freaking delusional nut. Shit, why did I do this? I've been an egoistic fool. I have never felt this stupid in so long.

Um....Was this supposed to be about me or you? Sorry I haven't been the greatest friend yet. Tell me about you now. I've missed you. I need a hug. Very Badly.

Love,

Me.

When, I wonder ?

It would break me and yet I incessantly pursue it...the thought of it consumes me.
I still want to know to when it will happen and I strive to know why it has not happened yet.
Does that make me crazy, sick or just deluded?
I can think straight but inside, I feel thirsty....deprived and lonely.
I just want to be in love once. I’m not stupid to think it could last forever. But I just want a taste of it.
Just once and I will be cured. At least, for a while, right? I mean, it can’t be like Crystal Meth or Weed, right or anything that you could get addicted to? Or can you? Okay, yeah, you got me, I know love can be a bit of drug sometimes. But honestly, if things didn’t work out, you at least can move on, you don’t have to go to rehab as such. I think I’m contradicting myself here cuz some things are just metaphors that when you relate them to the whole process of love, it does make total sense. I shall cease to write more on this now.

Edward Cullen is the sweetest vampire ever! He’s sweet, simple yet traditionally very romantic and sensitive. He loves Music and he doesn’t sleep ever and he is just so adorable in the whole fact of dancing because it’s the most human thing and trying to make Bella dance with him or rather dance because he loves her so much. He’s got an intense sensitivity about him which is truly alluring. The fact that he falls for Bella makes it perfect…they are both perfect together. Their love is so innocent and pure.
The way that he kisses her for the first time when he asks for her to stay still and tells her that he’s wondered for so long what it would be like or feel like is just the most romantic thing to say to a girl ever. Oooh, I just wish there were someone like him. And their first kiss is innocent yet explosive and you can feel the love between them, it makes you feel like you wish you were loved like that, to be engulfed in a love so pure and deep. Fuck, I must sound like a retard (Only because now love has been reduced to just pure and plain sex to an extent, and I am not against sex or anything as it is strictly one’s personal choice and opinion but it would be nice to know that you can still hope for something real, true in this world of teeming sex-addicts and love-farcers). Now you understand how cool it is to write where you know no one really is going to trespass or even find out, for that matter. It gives us, writers, sole pleasure and a heightened sense of secrecy. Especially when you dawdle on something that you are sure is not going anywhere credible or rather, intelligible.

Smell - No, Radhika Jha, I'm not trying to steal your thunder....

Maybe I never said this before but The Body Shop has to be one of my favorite places to be at (after Jarir Bookstore and Crossword)! And before you can think that it just came here two years back or something and I'm proudly confessing it now, let me tell you that I've been in Saudi Arabia before so I luckily had the benefit of the prolonged experience of The Body Shop for a very long time now. There has never been a better-smelling place in the world as far as fragrance and bath shops go (I'm still looking for the Bath & Body Works Store somewhere here in Bombay but no luck as of yet). I've just discovered newer products that I would want to invest in like Deep Sleep - a Dreamy Pillow and Body Mist (By far, the most coolest and innovative product I've come across...It's a Mist you can spray on your pillow or yor clothes and you fall into a deep sleep as the name suggests...Mmmm...feel nice already hearing about it?), Green Apple Blossom Shower Gel - Yummy, Rougeberry Eau de toilette - Hope it comes to the outlets here!, Aqua Lily, Japanese Cherry Blossom Perfume, Wild Cherry Shower Gel---How awesome must that be! etc etc... I can go on ad infinitum. All I know is that if I had a salary, it would be clinking in the cashier-drawers at the Body Shop! The smells are so fricking inviting, it's like you step into a Magical place where flowers and fragrances and mists swivel you up in swirl of color and draw you in! The notes they use in their fragrances are so different and cool and interesting. The packaging of the products are damn attractive, too...like the Peppermint Foot Cream in bright blue tubs.

The Lip Butters and Lip Balms are, from a personal experience, to die for. They smell incredible and suitably serve for attracting the boys...hehe...as far as my friends who have tried and tested them. My two very favorites are Cranberry Shimmer(Yes, it's got flecks of gold in them!) and Raspberry - the yummiest. However, I've come to the recipe for instantaneous supple and gorgeous lips is to apply a little of any of the lip butters with any of the balms and your lips look super-cool! The Body Butters are very cool, too...I had the benefit of receiving a Strawberry Scented one for my birthday last year and yeah, well my skin was super smooth while it lasted! :(

And I absolutely have got to get their environment-supporting cloth bag, I mean, I'm saving the environment right? Might as well fully commit to it in my cool indulgence.

Bono

Bono really knows how to say it like that. Just like that. I mean, did you think you could put 'On the road, but you've got no destination' in a song? An easy-listening, alternative rock song. This song really is apt to make anyone feel like it's a beautiful day. Even the line, 'You've been all over and it's been all over you'....oooh, the writing is kick-ass. It sums up life generally.

'After the flood, all the colors came out.....


What you don't have, you don't need it now...

What you don't know, you can feel it somehow...'

Even I wouldn't have thought of the first two lines that way, at least when I would be feeling all bitter and pissed off with life, I wouldn't have thought that I actually don't need what I don't have right now but it does support my other thesis that Whatver happens, happens for a reason!

I'm excited about many things at the moment:

1. Meeting Also Tao D'Souza
2. Noitseuq-if anything happens
3. Alita
4. Meeting Minila
5. Washing my hair
6. Buying Silver Wire
7. Printing my visiting Cards
8. How can I forget? My Blog-readers!
9. More Karaoke
10.Pepsi

11.Rosecraft

Blah Blah Black Sheep

When I first came across Noitseuq, I was like what in the world is that?And the irony of it is that it was that itself. Confused? Yup,I was too. Its 'question' spelt backwards. Don't we all read more into things than we are supposed to? Or maybe its just me cuz I have the quirkiest habit to over-think and ruminate things through and through. I guess you can be cautious for a while but it's good to go ahead and shave off all your hair sometimes! Get my drift?

Oh,by the way, I realized how very,very and densely random the above para was, Noitseuq is an agency with which I have an interview lined up for tommorow... I didn't randomly decide to ponder on the psyche of its spelling.Haha.

Have you ever gone for a Karaoke Night? Its nearly the most awesome thing in the world....To have the mike in your hands makes you feel like the whole world is at your disposal...I am so gonna buy a mike for myself !

I wish Edward Cullen were real.He's the coolest and most romantic vampire I've heard of..even more than Angel from Buffy.Damn these fictional men! :(

Sometimes I think I'm too boy-crazy...I need to stop this baseless belief in love. But because I've never experienced it, I just want to have it once. You know. Just once. It doesn't even have to be forever...

The verse of Beautiful Girl by INXS plays in my head as I type this...Have you ever tried Chamomile Tea?I want to try it.I've had green tea,like you know,if you've been reading before, and yeah it tastes bleh.

Isn't this line awesome...After the flood,all the colors came out....It's from Beautiful Day by U2. Their music has such an amazing 'charging-up' appeal to it.

The new Facebook is sooo stupid, who the hell wants to know every fricking thing about your friends? Even your best friend or boyfriend? I thought Facebook was created for the sole purpose of keeping in touch with your friends, not keeping tabs on them...

And this is far by the most random I've been while writing on a public forum, except it wouldn't be so public as much as it is secret because nobody knows when I write these things or checks them out or...so...but writing in such a manner gives one creative freedom and that really makes the flow of words almost unconscious,the only kind of unconscious I really love...Freely writing.

The Disappearing Act

I'm trying to be as incognito as possible. I think it's working. Because if I lay low for a while, it'll help me gain better perspective. This is what I do. When I get sad, I like being with myself best. It sucks that you have to explain to your friends why you are this way or for them to work on what can they do to make you feel better. I mean, that happens on its own. Better to deal with it alone, than have a posse of your best friends trying to gauge what's wrong with you and trying to help you to feel better. There's nothing definite to get anyone out of a certain mood, I dunno what my remedy is but for long, I've believed it to be writing. Writing or thinking. And yeah, I'm only human so but natural, that remedy would include the outflowing of frustrated tears. Sometimes I am strange, much as I like being around some people and being noticed for my 'coolness', I really like being invisible too. Is that scary-weird? Cuz honestly I think I really like my alone-time better than any other time. I dunno. I'm scared and I think that being 22 and unemployed makes me feel like I'm running out of a lot of time here. Precious Time. But whatever, there'll be another post in the very near future where I'll be super-excited about something else so don't dwindle on this moany-wallowy post for too long. It's bad enough that I'm this mopey, you shouldn't have to be that way too. Just don't be like me. Be different!