Selfish

You know how when you haven't refilled your phone-credit for a while, they tell you that your service/line has been temporarily disconnected. Well, I feel like that disconnected line. Not exactly towards life, but I feel like I'm disconnecting from people. It's hard to explain to the people about what I'm feeling, especially when some of those people are my really close friends but I just don't know what to do. It's at times like this that I feel like going for a long holiday or be exiled to a place where no one knows me and no one cares to know me. Strange, right? I'm not a loner, I'm usually the kind who loves to be with people. Especially the ones I care about. But yeah, I wish I could be a loner just for a while. You know, may be to get things in perspective or to just be stationary while time moved. I just hate explaining to people why I am this way and why I wish to be left alone. I just need to be alone in my head sometimes. May be I'm just being horribly selfish, I know I am but I hate being tied down or clung to. This whole independence-thing (not sure if you could call it that) has pretty much gotten to me. I think it's bad. I don't know if I should change, if I want to. But I just might lose the people that I care about and who care about me the most if I disconnect this way, even if it's on a temporary basis because sometimes a little crack can break the whole vase, if you know what I mean. I think I'm crazy. If I were Rob Thomas, I would have used these thoughts and feelings and composed a nice little sad but cool relate-able ballad.

Pensée

Mates, Dates, Guide to life is proving to have worthy tips on boys and the like! : ) But I still need to ask C my other doubts and stuff to contribute to my extensive study on the malelular-half of my species. Plus, my ice-breaking abilities suck and since there’s no chance of me becoming an x-woman soon with powers to melt ice and its metaphorized variations, well, yeah I need to go the traditional way.

Mira thinks my display pic is cool, I mean, she thinks I’m finally picking up the pace, graphic designing-wise! Also, the Sketch Book is really helping me as I draw rough layouts and work it out on the computer later on. In fact, I randomly just created a book-coverish illustration outta a picture I clicked and I like how it looks!

The place, Ignitee, where I went for an interview wasn’t too bad. This is my take on it:

LOCATION : Ok, Could get pretty floody in the rains.
BUILDING : Scary, ghost-ish, Devoid of Souls.
LOBBY : Pretty not bad.
RECEPTIONIST : Friendly.
INTERIORS : Pretty vast than what I expected, Not so bad.
INTERVIEWER : Simple, wise, Straight-forward, No superficiality or added airs.
STATUS FOR NOW : Awaiting Feedback.

However, last night, I sent my resume to a very cool and colorful place, C* and it’s awesome and it really is so me! I think it would be great to learn from there and get experienced as well. I hope I get an interview with them, to say the least. I’ve been thinking of a new-ish idea, all due to Ketz…(relating to Rosecraft)!

I have two paintings to my credit now, and I like the Abstract One more than the Butterfly, I think it’s quite cool and that I could do more paintings like that.

I’m really missing partying or rather dinner-socializing, there was one on Sunday but I just couldn’t make it : (
I miss going to college and seeing everyone and talking to everyone! I wish we were close right from the first year on or we had more time together. It’s strange that most of the bigger half of my class don’t really keep in touch but I wish we would, I really do, it sort became like a family, you know, an extended one, that you need to keep talking to and telling/asking about their lives but some don’t really care. That’s not cool at all.

Also, a letter to my dying friend...(who can post-pone his succumb-er to a great tad).

Eric, my love,

I took you in my home when you had none. Hell, I paid to take you home. I've loved you like the boyfriend I've never had, I love HP too but he's different. I treated you well. I laughed with you. We smiled as we listened to some our favorite songs together. Let's not forget the games we played...Prince of Persia, Frankenstein etc. You helped me when I had no one to look out for me. And I did the same for you when people thought you weren't worthy. Even in trying times, we made it through. Just can you try to fight back some more for me? Please live some more. A friend like you has really beeen price-ful but I don't care because I love you. Just don't die yet. It's not your time.

Love,

You know who.

P.S. I designed the pic in this. The bookish-cover like Illustration? Yup, that's it.

Top 5 Meals For a True-Blue Foodie

Are you a foodie? Do you love chicken enough that you want to indulge in its deliciousness? Here are five chicken meals in Mumbai that I have found to be very worthy and completely lip-smackable. Try them out, yourselves!

1. Chicken Steak with Mushroom Sauce: You can eat this delectable delight at Candies Outlets at Bandra. Not only is the mushroom sauce to die for, it’s the sautéed veggies that are scrumptious too. It’s all served on a platter along side fries and a complimentary salad of your choice (Chicken Potato/Chicken Macaroni/Garden Salad). Priced at 100 Rs., it’s definitely affordable.

2. Chicken Shawarma at Piccadilly’s: How many times have you felt that you haven’t tasted the Middle-eastern goodness of a Shawarma in Bombay? Fear not, I have the place for you at Piccadilly’s on Colaba Causeway. It’s the next best place after the Middle East that transpires the awesome Lebanese flavor through their shawarma. Their garlic sauce is pretty great too and you can keep dipping your pickled veggies in it!

3. Roast Chicken at Café Mondegar (Colaba Causeway): This meal has got it all. Equipped with sautéed veggies in a mouth-watering sauce, this leg of roast chicken will pack you with a punch. It is served with fries and a loaf of toasty garlic bread alongside the chicken. Mm-mmm!

4. Spinach Chicken Garlic Pizza from Santino’s, In Orbit Mall: This very unique pizza flavoring and topping is fantastic, the moment you take a bite, your mouth fills your senses with the rich flavors of the garlic and the yummy chicken pieces and makes you wanna chomp your way through the experience. You can also opt for a Slice and Fries Meal Combo if that’s the way you like it!

5. Mama’s Steak Burger at Mama Mia’s: This has to be the juiciest and very satisfying burger in all of Bombay! Strategically placed chicken steak in sauce between the breads and crunchy veggies and a side platter of yummy fries, it truly is delicious. (Note: Do try the cheese garlic bread topped with chicken as a side-starter, too, its food that makes you feel good).

If your tummy feels a little stuffed after it all, here’s the best part: work it out! Because all of these places are either located next to a promenade or at malls where you have to walk a bit before you get to your car and home. Do check them out when you need a new place to eat from your regular haunts and revel in its feel-good awesomeness!

In an imaginary rocket to space...

Um, I guess it's okay, sure, life will suck and then you don't even get to die... and I know it sounds corny but it's also because there are sooo many folks who love you! Not only corny-ish, that totally didn't any make sense to me, but I'm gonna blog it anyway. Not because I'm crazy but cuz I can.

The picture I've uploaded along with this post has no relevation whatsoever, it's my messy shelf in my cupboard but my favorite shelf nonetheless and it's colorful and looks pretty as a fresco! Well, yeah, ok if it's true and they are going to diss me off, it's fine, sure, it'll suck, I'll be bummed, I'd cry but I'll be cool (in some time possibly). Just need to really start looking in other places faster and make sure that they happen and not just talk about them. I'm glad I bought a Sketch-Book for my art-work, it'll help me. Now, all I gotta do is pay the fees and start some serious painting. You know, it'll be too bad if I don't get to give in Nandini's interview before I get kicked off cuz she was so excited, I was, too and now it'll just fizz out on us. But some other grass on another side, then. My lappie has 24% battery power left and I have no wish to plug in the charger so I'll see you around. Thanks for listening, it helps me suck it up and smile. :) Be cool.

I blame Reliance

I’ve just managed to affirm that I’ve been incredibly stupid. The past two weeks that I abstained from facebook didn’t work at all very well. I’ve still somehow managed to rack up a huge bill of 1,317.64 Rs. I am sooo dead! This has happened a few times before but have I learnt my lesson? No, No, No, Noooope. So now I have to pay the price. Possibly from my much awaited cheque of 2,000 from UTV. Sucks, I tell you. And my boss hasn’t been responding much to my e-mails and stuff which has got me thinking, does she think I’m over-enthusiastic and she can’t have any of that? But I write well, and on time, I want more work and now in such a testing case and a trying time, I definitely need the money. I didn’t go for my interview for Jr.Copywriter with Ignitee today. Well, it rained really hard. Plus, it’s a different direction completely. I would never want to work for an ad agency full-fledgedly and for same old sucky clients. Its magazines I’m more inclined to. Print Graphics, Illustrations, Package Design, Stationery..that kinda stuff. And all I’m thinking about is how I’m going to pay my f***ing internet bill. Shit. I hate Reliance. It freaking sucks (Oh yeah, I love blaming someone else for my problems, but in this case, it holds true, the staff at Reliance sucks. They can’t speak fricking English. Are they trained well-enough or well-informed about their services? No, I believe that they aren’t. I mean, you can’t hire random people, throw them into crappy uniforms and make them by-heart some info if they have no physical know-how of how it works. They also should learn how to deal with customers). Who has to pay for all this crap? Ironically, me. When I want to change my net tariff plan, I believe their system is fucked up. But when I have to cough up the cash, their machines work pretty fine to me. They suck.

Ah, enough of my rants, I will do something about this, believe you me, this rant isn’t empty and I will make sure I have my way with those freaks.
Anyway, I can’t wait to watch the Half-Blood Prince this week and it’s going to be super-fantastic! : ) Oooh, and Margo had her baby, she’s really cute and rumor has it that she has the adorablest dimples! Also, I have two chapters left in The Hungry Tide and I’ll be sad when the book’s over. I hope nothing bad happens even though they are on the brink of a cyclone right now. I hope Kanai, Piya, Fokir and Horen are all fine. I was surprised to learn that Arup has read the book as well and he too, thinks it’s brilliant and he told me that Amitav has set up an NGO for the Irrawady and Gangetic Dolphins in the Sunderbans. Awesome, right? Must tell Ashwita this. Also, it felt good to speak to Miaaaow for so long yesterday, I really want to watch The Hangover with her, too. Plus, I need to cough up bucks for my FA painting classes…yay! : ) Btw, I have become a twitter-hoe from the looks of it. I’m very ashamed to admit, cuz while I abstained from facebook, I sought my solace with twitter. Shucks, I need a keeper to tame me of my wanton ways. Oooh, and I really want to go partying! It’s been really long and I just wanna take a few of my girlfriends and Costa* out for a night of fun. And I’ve been crushing really, ever so hard on Liberacci* but who knows where the sea shall take us? I do wish we talked more or he was around or something. Damn stupid karma and life-trip-ups.
I want to go to the BWSL but I don’t have a car. Yet.

You keep me in check, Universe. Kisses.

Facebook Abstain-ence : Week One

Day 1 & 2 :

I was so good at my abstaining programme that I failed to languish hours on the net as well!

Day 3 : July 1, 2009

Well, I've been two days off facebook and I can safely say that I am still in the pink of health. :) It's not so bad plus like I mentioned before, I've been reading The Hungry Tide and honestly, I cannot keep my eyes off it at all. I am completely and totally mesmerized by it, it's a very interesting story and the flow of the book is so beautiful. It's a very picturesque book. It's proving to be a great read and it's been really long since I enjoyed a good book. The last few ones that I bought myself turned out to be thoroughly dissatisfying : Remember me? by Sophie Kinsella (lacked the good-show humor that was present in Can you keep a secret?) and A Girl like me (Never judge a book by its cover no matter how colorful or cool it looks....what a deceiver!)


Moving on, the characters in the book, Piyali Roy and Kanai Dutt have their own separate lives told mostly in alternate chapters and it is sheer coolness how their lives are inter-woven with the other characters that they come across through the book and how they are some how linked to each other makes it all the more enthralling. In fact, I've even drawn a sort of family-tree thingy so I don't get confused with the different relations among the characters. The fisherman, Fokir, who helps Piyali on her quest of rare river dolphins, is quite an enigmatic yet cool character by himself on the waters. I'm almost midway through the book and much as I enjoyed reading Beneath a Marble Sky, I'm moving through The Hungry Tide with an even fiercer hunger than the tide itself!

Oh, among other things, I haven't seen my articles up yet on www.bindass.com , can't wait for that! Hope Hiral puts it up soon. I bought Val some cool things for her b'day which is day after tomorrow, hope she loves it, I'm quite excited to give it to her. I was supposed to get her The Amityville Horror or Shutter or another coolio scary movie but it would've blown a hole outta my pocket so had to opt out. We can both rent it later anyway and get spooked anyway. Also, also, very exciting discovery at Hyper City: They sell Wai-Wai Noodles...Yumm! - Earlier it was known only to be found at my other fave grocery store Patel's-Bandra, which technically deserves to be a mini-dept store in its own right but anyway, also HC had this cool Vanilla Bath and Body Sugar...Awesome and Mmmm...have to save up for it and for Unaccustomed Earth too by Jhumpa Lahiri. Till I see you tomorrow, have a good life.

Day 4 : July 2, 2009

Nothing significant...went for a UTV meeting, came back...heard about Val's accident,was upset...emotional upheaval..nothing out of the ordinary.

Day 5 : July 3, 2009

Same old, same old nothing.

Day 6 : July 4, 2009

Came home from Maya's early morning, I was so sure I heard the mice under the bed squeaking and I didn't want to wake up with the experience of having encountered any so I hurried off and away or lest having it chew at my feet, like Microbe said she had experienced! Brrr. Left home around noon to meet my mom and sis and we went for New York. It wasn't a bad movie but the ending could've been better and there should've been a bit more attention to detail. Just a tiny hint of it cuz rest all the details and attention were well-covered. Acting was also sorta commendable but not deserving of oscars and such.

Katrina Kaif seems to be improving slowly but surely with her acting skills and hindi-diction. Of course, it also helps that she's totally gorgeous. Neil Nitin Mukesh was quite adorable in the movie, but he too could've done better. John looks great these days, but his acting still fails to deliver. May be this is also far too analytical, but when someone who has lived in NY since he was four years old and does not have a proper accent makes me just obsessively irritated. John could've totally worked on that. All in all, like I said before, it wasn't too bad, it had a great story, it structured pretty well through the movie. I'd give it a three star-rating. Also, of course, the main songtrack, Hai Junoon is quite pleasing to listen to. There are some other alternative-rock-sounding tracks, whose names I don't know and I liked them. :) Irrfan Khan too is just cool as himself. His acting is effortless and his brilliance to deliver sets him apart.

Day 7 : July 5, 2009

Have been working on Bindass Buddies all day and I finished two samples so far. Not sure whether the execution was totally correct and I do know I lacked a bit of finesse. Awaiting a verdict, which I'm pretty sure is not going to be good. Sophia's is totally annoying as well as other damn art colleges, because it's not my fault that I didn't know about the Intermediate Drawing Grade plus there's no way for me to do it now and well, if I was good at it, there's no way I'd apply for a course like that. The Foundation Course in Sophia's was so apt for me, it would teach me all the basics of drawings to fully launch in to Graphic Art and Design. But no, they are government-based or the course is, rather so yeah, no consideration for me. Sucks. I'm confused, I don't know what to do. I'll have to start job-hunting again and do side-by-side drawing classes if there are any or just work for a while, and look up short art courses abroad. France totally appeals, not sure how expensive their art programs would be but I really wish I had the money to go! Or may be London. Let's see.

Also, I'm very shocked and surprised at Bouncie*'s decision to live out. I hope things work out soon for B. B is the most sweetest, selfless and thoughtful person whom I know of and is a great friend, too. I hope it works out well, after he/she re-thinks things before taking up a final decision because it will still be very hard for B. I hope I get to meet B today. It will be good for him/her. Please, Universe, look after Bouncie.

Nothing Considerable!

It's cool how we all find solace in the many strange and unstrange things that we do. I'm reading this blog by a person whom I don't know and of course, she doesn't know me as well. By the way, how I got to following her blog or rather how I came to know of her existence can be broken down to four degrees of separation. I know Ashwita, who used to work for Wavelength and whose boss was Abir, who is also the boyfriend of the girl whose blog I'm following, and yeah well, that's how I bumped in to her blog. And I've forgotten her name. I think it's Priyanka. I really don't know. But it's nice to read her posts, in fact, I have saved up a bunch of her posts for light reading whenever I'm free! It might sound a little absurd, or fall in to the lines of being weirdly snoopy, but honestly, it's not. I don't know her, I will possibly never meet her as such but just reading her work provides me with inspiration and a feeling of contentment.

I'm also happy about the fact that I've begun to read The Hungry Tide, a book I tried to shy away from, but strangely enough, it's proving to be not an unenjoyable read. I think I like Piyali Roy, one of the characters in the book, and her description seems to conjure up an image of Nandini, my ex-roomie from the hostel, when I read it.

I've also flicked these empty liqueur bottle miniatures(you know, those cute little bottles you could buy on a flight, my mom is an avid collector of those!) and a big Smirnoff one to decorate or make in to pretty art-pieces, psyched about working on those! :)

And yup, I finally got around to making Sagan's rastafarian band and I can't wait to get my shoes from him!

The 26th of June, 2009

The website I've been writing for is finally out-Yay (www.bindass.com) :) ! But Michael Jackson's dead, wasn't much of a fan but his music was quite catchy and one-of-a-kind pop types and it's just sad that he died early at 50. Truly, he has been the King of Pop. Anyway, I finally am downloading some of my favorites of his (Smooth Criminal, Billie Jean, Black or White-Hey, Tyra Banks's in the video, never noticed it before!, Scream, Thriller etc.). May you rest in peace, M.J, and like my friend, Sidharth conferred on fb, May you teach the Moon how to walk! :)

It's been raining and raining today, but the weather is finally cool and pleasant. Also, I discovered that I actually like the rains, I hated it initially, when I was just getting used to Mumbai, but now I've come to a point where I love the rains too. It's beautiful. Everything's so much more prettier in the rain. And the sky feels washed up, maybe just for you, too, Michael J. and Farah Fawcett.

Last night, I felt totally strange, I was only listening to music on my sister's iPod and reading a M & B (um...yeah) but I just felt so jumpy and energetic and was filled with a strong urge to just party and dance the morning away...a feeling like that. Also, it felt like love. Like if love could make a person happy, that's what it felt like. That I was in love. Only amazingly stupidly, I can't absolutely think of who cuz there's no one on mind. Crazy, huh? Very Weird.

P.S. Bindass.com has a totally cool layout and looks amazing, I'm not just saying it because I write for it, but it really does look commendable and I can't wait for more writing assignments!