Blah Blah Black Sheep

When I first came across Noitseuq, I was like what in the world is that?And the irony of it is that it was that itself. Confused? Yup,I was too. Its 'question' spelt backwards. Don't we all read more into things than we are supposed to? Or maybe its just me cuz I have the quirkiest habit to over-think and ruminate things through and through. I guess you can be cautious for a while but it's good to go ahead and shave off all your hair sometimes! Get my drift?

Oh,by the way, I realized how very,very and densely random the above para was, Noitseuq is an agency with which I have an interview lined up for tommorow... I didn't randomly decide to ponder on the psyche of its spelling.Haha.

Have you ever gone for a Karaoke Night? Its nearly the most awesome thing in the world....To have the mike in your hands makes you feel like the whole world is at your disposal...I am so gonna buy a mike for myself !

I wish Edward Cullen were real.He's the coolest and most romantic vampire I've heard of..even more than Angel from Buffy.Damn these fictional men! :(

Sometimes I think I'm too boy-crazy...I need to stop this baseless belief in love. But because I've never experienced it, I just want to have it once. You know. Just once. It doesn't even have to be forever...

The verse of Beautiful Girl by INXS plays in my head as I type this...Have you ever tried Chamomile Tea?I want to try it.I've had green tea,like you know,if you've been reading before, and yeah it tastes bleh.

Isn't this line awesome...After the flood,all the colors came out....It's from Beautiful Day by U2. Their music has such an amazing 'charging-up' appeal to it.

The new Facebook is sooo stupid, who the hell wants to know every fricking thing about your friends? Even your best friend or boyfriend? I thought Facebook was created for the sole purpose of keeping in touch with your friends, not keeping tabs on them...

And this is far by the most random I've been while writing on a public forum, except it wouldn't be so public as much as it is secret because nobody knows when I write these things or checks them out or...so...but writing in such a manner gives one creative freedom and that really makes the flow of words almost unconscious,the only kind of unconscious I really love...Freely writing.

The Disappearing Act

I'm trying to be as incognito as possible. I think it's working. Because if I lay low for a while, it'll help me gain better perspective. This is what I do. When I get sad, I like being with myself best. It sucks that you have to explain to your friends why you are this way or for them to work on what can they do to make you feel better. I mean, that happens on its own. Better to deal with it alone, than have a posse of your best friends trying to gauge what's wrong with you and trying to help you to feel better. There's nothing definite to get anyone out of a certain mood, I dunno what my remedy is but for long, I've believed it to be writing. Writing or thinking. And yeah, I'm only human so but natural, that remedy would include the outflowing of frustrated tears. Sometimes I am strange, much as I like being around some people and being noticed for my 'coolness', I really like being invisible too. Is that scary-weird? Cuz honestly I think I really like my alone-time better than any other time. I dunno. I'm scared and I think that being 22 and unemployed makes me feel like I'm running out of a lot of time here. Precious Time. But whatever, there'll be another post in the very near future where I'll be super-excited about something else so don't dwindle on this moany-wallowy post for too long. It's bad enough that I'm this mopey, you shouldn't have to be that way too. Just don't be like me. Be different!

Beneath a Marble Sky

I'm reading one of the most mesmerizing books, Beneath a Marble Sky by John Shors. It's been a while since I've read a book that I want to savour pleasantly rather than devour till I reach the end. I mean, the last fantastic series I read was the Twilight series by Stephenie Meyer and that's more of a page-turner and something that you'd wanna get to the end of, than read slowly. But Marble Sky is so awesome and it's like a yummy Indian flavour that you would just want to relish. It's a fictional story about one of Shah Jahan's daughters, Jahanara who falls in love with the principal architect, Isa, working on the Taj Mahal (one of the most beautiful and awesome architectural wonders of the world). The book is so picturesque and as you read the words, the pictures automatically appear in your mind. It is based on history so there are some interesting facts and Shors has really woven the entire piece beautifully. But like I said before, I haven't yet gotten to the end because I'm savouring each taste as I read it slowly. But pick up a copy, and I think after reading the book, it shall make one's actual experience of the Taj Mahal even more special when they finally see it. I've always wanted to go to Agra to see the Taj but I'm glad I'm reading the book first because it'll definitely hold special for me when I do get the chance to see it in all its pristine glory.
So go ahead, pick a copy when you can, it's guaranteed to make you fall in love with the book, with its characters and the author for writing it so splendidly... A must-read for all kinds of book-lovers, lovers of art and history, too.

Questions

Are stars spirits of dead people smiling down on you? Why isn't moving on a speedy process? Why do we very often than not,cling to the past? Why do you get messages from phone services and not from people you wish messaged you? Why do we think what is not? Why is a choice to remain single not respected for exactly what it is? Why is there a weird taste in my mouth? Are they looking at me? Are we just friends or more? Is it wrong to love your own space? Have we met before? Will he notice me if I wear this t-shirt? Is the end near? Do Aliens exist? Will I go to Egypt? Are there ghosts around me that I can't see,as I sit and type this? Should I give that lecher a piece of my mind? Shall I offer her a hanky? Should I help him? Will I really never be married? Do you think I'll meet God someday? Why hasn't Seventeen come out with an issue this month-is it a mystery? Will I play the guitar? Will my phone come back to life? Isn't nothing something? Who am I? Will I get the job? Does he think I'm pretty? Is she gonna be okay? What is your name? Are u reading my blog right now? What shall I have for dinner? What are you thinking about? What is it that you really wish for? Have you been to the Bermuda Triangle? Would you like to jump into a foamy sea and feel free? Will you call me when you reach? Is summer here already? Have you been to Disney Land? Have you surfed a wave? Does he like me? Do you think the edge of the sea has some thing sad about it-like it's going off into another world? Did I spill sauce on my shirt again? What if you saw me across the road and didn’t know it was me? What if you met me before but just can’t remember? Will we ever meet the people whose faces we’ve never seen before except in dreams? Why do I still think of you and wish the best for you? When you make a wish on an eyelash and blow it away, does it travel into a parallel universe? Can you answer a question with a question? Tu comprend? How are we so different from our parents? Why am I like this? Why? Did I lock the door when I left the house? Do you wonder where you'll be five minutes from now?

Dev D.

Have you watched Dev D. yet? It is a brilliant movie, I couldn’t stop raving about it the day I watched it. It is amazingly made, the pop-art feel of the film is very nice to watch. Vibrant use of Color, Beautiful shots, simple yet amazing flow of the story... It really is a great movie. Truly bowled over with Anurag Kashyap’s direction and Abhay Deol, whom I never thought to look at or pay attention to before. The actress playing Paro does justice to her bit in the film too. The other girl in the film playing Chanda undoubtedly is very young in the fim, and her child-like humour infused with wittiness makes it great to appreciate on screen. This movie started off with dark undertones but the very surprising and almost unpredictable end made it even more beautiful to applaud such a film. I’ve been proud of Hindi movies like Dil Chahta Hai, Rang de Basanti and Taare Zameen Par but for now, this one truly takes the cake and deserves all the praise. Dev D. is a must-watch for lovers of creativity because it is not just the story, it is more the way it has been executed, the way it’s been transpired to the eyes of us, the viewers. I want to watch it again! I’m definitely gonna pick up a dvd of it when it comes out. The songs are also different and make for easy listening. 'Paayaliya' and 'Aankh Micholi' are my favorites. Aankh Micholi almost has a haunting feel to it, take a listen and you'll see. The lyrics of ‘Emotional Attyachar’ are hilarious! :)

Black and White!

I just drank a whole mug of green tea…Bleh! It was terrible. I had a really strange dream last night, I can’t remember it all except that it had bits faintly related to the Vatican and the Devil! It was quite bizarre and there were these African folks too in the dream who were pissed with our family for not following the Devil or something like that. There were these weird yellow-eyed goats in the dream too and immobile gorges of water which were slightly muddy. Strange, huh? It didn’t make sense at all. I’m not trying to decipher it but I wonder how it even formed a base in my sub-conscious to structure out so randomly because it was never on my mind. It’s at times like this, I do wish I had my sister’s Dream Dictionary to refer to. Or that I had a Personal Dream Analyst. It sounds like a cool profession by far.

I’m excited because I was waiting for a friend yesterday and decided to kill time (no wait, that’s not right because I love Bookstores of all kinds, anyway…so the word would be ‘spend’ not kill) by browsing through Crossword. I came across all sorts of exciting books and the Twilight Series(The Next Most Awesome Series after Harry Potter!- It’s about a normal girl who falls in love with a Vampire) had already disappeared of the shelves, I’ve already read all and have them as text files on my computer but they are a book series I’d want to own in the tangible kind. Yeah, so anyway, they’d all been gone. I did find ‘Unaccustomed Earth’ by Jhumpa Lahiri (I love her work!) but too expensive for me to pick up so I’ll wait until I have oodles of cash to stock my shelves with my favorite authors. I did bump into this book called ‘A Girl Like Me’ and the cover Illustration did attract me, I felt it was something like I would design (hopefully, I get to do that very soon when I’m blessed with a similar-sounding job), and the summary further prompted me to buy the book because I knew I would really enjoy it. I’m pretty much a sucker for ‘shy/artsy/awkward-girl-meets-cool-guy-and-they-fall-in-love’ kind of crap! So yeah, I picked it up, it was 250 Rs. and I had it gift-wrapped : ) and I signed to me! It’s my Birthday present to myself! Yay!
I did forget to look for the tenth installment in the Princess Diaries Series, however, I just thought of it now. I don’t think age should restrict you to what you read. Reading is fun and always enlightening and if you like a book that kids normally read, that doesn’t make you stupid or less intelligent. There are different books and different people. You are free to read what you like. Why ignore that tempting copy of Harry Potter & The Chamber of Secrets because your kids read it? You see it, it interests you, always do read it. Sorry, I’m just very and truly passionate about reading. It’s such a nice thing to do : ) and makes you immensely happy!

Over-Thinking: Boon and Bane!

I just feel so very blah today. You know, how on somedays you feel as though you're on top of the world and nothing can break you? Well I feel the opposite of that today. Honesty and being your true self to whoever it is, I really value but it's just that not everyone gets that or thinks you ought be that way to brush past the conniving wolves of this world and make your mark in this world. It's so hard to move on and be pleasant about things, to move forward especially when your mind clearly remains stagnant in troubled waters...I keep trying to do it everyday but somehow I crash recklessly backward into false dreams or rather beaten hope. It makes me feel bad, makes me feel so disappointed and the next moment, the smallest of things can me happy, me(like seeing Lola Kutty in public or someone telling me my phone-wire braiding is really cool) and I can really be the happiest person on that day. I just don't like feeling this other sick way because it makes me tear up and negativity is really like a poison, it seeps through your system gradually, corrupts your thinking and kills you instantly once the process is complete. Hey, writing is very therapeutic, like talking to a friend or talking to yourself. It helps to clear your mind at least for a teensy while, it's a clean feeling but sometimes the hurt just lies there stuck in those impossible-to-reach nooks and crannies until the sharp and clever point of a toothpick comes along and fishes out the annoying tiny sliver of something wedged between your teeth!

Sunshine makes me smile! :)

The way you feel when the Sun shines in your eyes is amazing...it makes you feel alive,cheery,bright...it feels like love. I cut my hair from this place called Harsh today, it's getting more and more popular here in Mumbai and I have to say I'm happy with my hair! :) I feel more positive than I've been in a year, I've made new friends, still kept in touch with the old ones and yeah, it feels great to be alive, to sit here typing infinitely again. I haven't written anything in ages. So this post might be a little topsy-turvy but hey,yeah at least I've written! A new start, a fresh beginning! It makes me think of my friend, Ashwita, she's the kind of person who invents words that resembles sounds you would make when you're happy, sad, energetic, whatever!! She brings out the best in me! Truly. Or in anybody. She's the kind of person who inspires, learns, is very wise for her age and somehow she is very child-like as well!
Hmmmm.... My eyes are burning and I'm sort of sleepy but I feel like I should write more, share more. This is so random, I have never written so scattery(I know that's not a word, but hey you've adapted to Muggles so this shouldn't be so hard!) on a public forum before! It's kind of funny, really, makes me laugh...