Conversations with the Brain

Her: I'm a girl of many talents.

Me: Oh really. And what are you doing about it?

Her: Well, nothing mostly. But I'm happy. I'm blogging regularly too.

Me: Blogging? That's your big move after being a proper writer and editor?!

Her: Um. Yeah! Why?

Me: Tons of reasons.

Her: Don't be a killjoy. You know that I like my space and time, doing my own thing. Having nobody to report to.

Me: Yeah, but sometimes it's what you need. Besides, do you even have a source of income?

Her: Not really. But I'll get to that when it bothers me.

Me: You mean when you have no more money for your little shopping escapades? Sure. (Snickers)

Her: You're just being a mean dick.

Me: No. Realistic.

Her: Why are you like this? At least, my life is completely stress-free at the moment. I think I might actually be self-actualised, at this point.

Me: Keep dreaming. I'm not saying anything, do what you want.

Her: Okay.

Me: Okay.

Jupiter Skye ♥

Here's the thing. So I haven't been able to really write so much at work or complete any of my articles on time. I just can't seem to get the space and frame of mind right to do that in the office. However, the good news is that I've been writing more frequently on Jupiter Skye. :-) I really wish I had enough of money, you know. Like act in a lame-ass movie, earn a truckload of money and then invest it in my future! I would really love to do an art program in Paris for a short period and then intern and write at a fashion magazine in New York. With my new editor on board, I really think I'm learning a whole lot more. Something as basic as reading the newspaper (which I never used to do before) is something I really look forward to everyday! Yup, it's an exercise my boss has stated that we keep up with. Anyway if you guys do happen to check my new blog out, let me know what you think. I'm so excited with fashion these days and even though I'm broke most of the time, I still find myself splurging on anything and everything that catches my fancy! Oh well, one life :-)

Do I sound like Alanis Morisette?

I once read this poem, it had these lines, 'What is this life, if full of care? We have no time to stand and stare.' I don't know, it just randomly came back to me right this very moment. Strange, huh? Well, I am strange. I sometimes think of distant memories and wish I could go back to it. I've become this girl. I used to be that girl. You know, I hated that girl sometimes. But I'm here! This is it. It's real. It's scary but it's as real as real goes. I want to travel. A lot. I thought it would happen this year. But, ah there's a travel fare to every place and well, let's face it, money takes you places. I've wanted so bad this past year to live in Paris for a bit, study art and make it all on my very own once again. I need change. Change is good. They say that nothing is more permanent than change. Am I rambling? Perhaps. This must be the closest to what I'm feeling in person that I've blogged about in a long time. Of late, it's just been projections and metaphors of what I've been feeling. I always think that I'd live in New York too, sometimes, for a brief while. Don't get me wrong, Bombay is great, I just need to do all that over again. Setting off to a new place, re-learning things, experiences, moreso. I need that. It's something that Nandini helped me discover about myself. I love being so disconnected sometimes, my friends sure as hell don't get it, but I like figuring it out. Doing it my own way. It's the only way I love being. What am I saying? I don't know. I thought I'd write a little metaphorical poem but creativity eludes me just as the one thing in my life that I've never had yet. But whatever, c'est la vie! I'll just roll with the punches and suck it up. Nothing like it. Fresh Air. Breathe it in...

Night!

Facebook Abstinence (Part 2) - Status: Aborted

This is my newest illustration and I totally love it because it's so me and displays my mind in its true form - splashes and splashes of colour all over the place! That's the state of mind I've been in since Sunday...when I went to town with Bouncie and we probably walked for most part of it! It was tons of fun, we went to Colaba Causeway, ate at Cafe Mondegar (yummy Alfredo and Carbonara Pasta), bought trinkets and I picked up a lovely UV purple dress for 200 bucks!! AWESOME! We walked till the end of Nariman Point (walked and walked and walked) and then I didn't want the day to end so I called up Costa! And I met him too! We went to Oberoi Mall and yakked and yakked non-stop. It was so much of fun and plus, I hadn't seen Costa since the last time at Kenzo. We talked about this and that and much more than we usually do so it was a lot of fun and I met up with him today also after a yummy time at Mocha Mojo (yummy Maggi noodles, Berry Blast and Chocolate Avalanche -- Mmmm). Anyway so we talked rubbish (as usual) at Gloria Jean's...was fun! Then we had to pee badly so we had to flee the premises and head to Globus (mission: successful). March Madness took over and indeed, it has been a very and truly long month. Ok, we found out Federerer's real name but now he knows we've been checking him out because of the Blah Baby :P DAMN! But he really is super-cute and I stole a few pics from his facebook profile (snicker) and hahaha sent them to Maya too! He really is so cute and his arms are so nice and muscly. Also in a pic he had on facebook, his calves are amazing! I totally think a guy's calves are super sexy. It looks so hot! :) If he is indeed, a coolio, it would be so cool if anything happened. I'm developing a huge crush here! Crap.

Being Optimistic

2010 is finally here!

It's brought splendor and cheer! (to an extent)

I have a job

I still don't know anyone named Bob

I still have my battered phone of the past 3 years

And yeah, I don't prefer alcoholic beers.

The guy I thought never saw me...

Finally did notice me....EEEEEEEEEE!

For the first time, I watched porn

In all the years since I've been born.
I re-lived my friendship with Minila

Yeah, I still have no preference for Fila.

I've lost some weight

But my hair has started falling, so nothing great.

I made loads of new friends!

And picked up on the latest trends.

I saw newer Horror Flicks

I traveled in a fewer ricks

I cut my hair twice

In my office, there are mice!

I learnt Fine Art

To Dubai, Ali had to depart

My memory fails me

That I cannot see...

I shall end

Before my head starts to bend

I loved 2009

Even if it were the year of the Swine!

Like Heroin

Hello, Virtual Peeps.

Been eons since I last penned down my vagrant thoughts and feelings here, I’ve missed it. What’s been happening? I’m back from my brief holiday at the Arab Land and been writing for Bindass and trying to do a lot since my contract ends soon (December… I hope they re-hire me for more time, I love writing for Bindass). Also, I guess I’ve become too much of a TV addict. I mean, I’ve got one show to watch every day and I can’t help but follow it, if I don’t, I’ve got to catch the repeat telecast the next day so much so that if I have to go out anywhere, I hate doing so lest I miss my programs! When I came to Bombay to live the first time years back, I barely got to watch TV at the hostel and I thought I’d curbed myself of the addiction for at least three years and well, now it’s back again! DAMN!

Aside of all that, I’ve begun to love painting on canvases, the paint just flows off effortlessly off the tips of my brushes and I’m so glad I went for those art classes in the middle of the year. I’m going to be painting a lot more canvases. It’s become an amazing and rather colorful hobby! I’m going to Hobby Ideas tomorrow and might pick up a whole bunch of art-related stuff, mostly for Rosecraft. I hope Neha gets in touch with me or lets me know what the situation is like at TO. I really want a job! A real job, a job I love, with a desk of my own, my own coffee mug etc., you know what I mean? I’m not a bad person. I’m the least of all risk-takers, I’m overtly cautious, I have inhibitions, I’m reserved, I’m not very brave but when it comes to something I love, I know I can do it, I’ve done it before! And I’m pretty creative, I’m smart, I write well, I have a good eye for color, I observe when you least notice and when you think, “Man, is she shy or what?” There’s more to me than meets the eye. So why can’t I get a chance to prove myself to everyone else? Why has my hope just being crushed in to little itsy-bitsy bits? I know I deserve it! You know that, too! So hire me and we’ll make it ROCK! COME ON!

Phew.. I hope I was heard. I’m feeling really drowsy but waiting up for Desperate Housewives (See, it’s just TV, TV, TV all the time… can you blame me? I mean, when I’m all mentally blocked to write for Bindass, it’s my only other recluse besides sticking it out with myself). Besides I can’t wait to see what Lynette does about Porter now that he’s having an affair with a married woman, what Dave’s secret is, will Carlos lose his job as a masseur at the Country Club? Damn, I’ve got this TV addiction bad.

Listening to Broken by Lifehouse, I wish the Universal Time Clock did break and time stopped but only in time whilst not messing up the space or kinetic continuum. Sometimes I try to wonder it’d be like to live in a futuristic world with robots, space-travel, lev-mag trains, subways through ocean bodies, aliens and that kind of thing. It enthralls me, of what could be.

Oooh, I finished decorating the photo frame for a friend, now gotta print the pic and put it in! Hope she loves it. Cheerio.

Love,
Krypton.

P.S. Read my stories on www.bindass.com

Dream + Working on Ideas + Belief = Reality

It finally happened! My exhibition finally materialized yesterday, on the tenth of October 2009 (for the records and so I won't forget)! It was a lot of fun, there were tons of cool folks around and I even met an ex-classmate of Sonali's, Leona Rodrigues, who was also sharing my stall along with her partner, Sangeeta who is a Wiccan (Ooooh!). They were selling a lot of outsourced stuff from artisans over India like proper junk-jewelry, luck-charms and these cool bath salts. I bought a funky orange necklace from them! :) Priya Dutt was there along with her very HOT husband, never knew he looked like that before. My mom said she saw VJ Juhi but I didn't get to see her! :(

Initially, not many folks bought anything from me, no one seemed interested as such, the crowd picked up a little after three o' clock. My first customer was a little cute and chubby girl with braces who kept saying, 'Cute!' as she browsed through my wares. She bought a Shell Necklace for Rs.60! After that, had to wait a while before others bought anything. Then someone bought an anklet and a coaster.. Val showed up with Shruti and Jennifer, that's when my friends started coming in! Andrea, Fads, Corny, Amanda, Ranvijay, Mi, Sonali etc.. They made quite a few purchases from my stall, but of course! Random people picked up a few of my wares here and there. Handed out my visiting card to all the important folk and those interested in my wares and for future purposes! :) Many people liked my hand-painted coasters so I intend to make some more and sell them in sets and I can't wait to start working on them. Also, what was surprising that many seemed to like the papier mache Bangles I made even though they looked more from the Stone-Age so intend to work on that too and make them more rustic and cooler! Managed to miss break-even point by a 500 Rs. margin but all in all, Great Experience, Learned loads and inspired to create a whole lot more creative stuff and I've got many new ideas to expand Rosecraft! Very excited. Here's to me! *Clink*

Sniffles

I've got a bad case of the sniffles. I hope it goes away. I just hate it when I'm sick because when I do get sick, I get it bad. Anyway, apart from that lousy piece of information, Rosecraft is finally due to take off! :) Let's cross our fingers and I hope you come to Candies on the 10th of October (10 am - 8 pm). I hope people buy stuff and like the stuff cuz I've put in my heart and soul in to this. If it happens, it goes all the way from here to shine like a star! I watched Orphan yesterday and it was quite creepy. That girl is such a bitch in the movie, she reminded me of Kayla from Desperate Housewives. The other cute-deaf girl who is her sister is very adorable. She's really cute! She's got this mass of golden curls and a sweet smile. My workshops at IIJ this saturday were a lot of fun. I made a Butterfly pendant in the Embossing Workshop, which I intend to wear once I get a funky neck-cord for it. It was a complete scientific process once we hammered in the design (yeah, that was a lot of fun...lots of banging. Wait, that didn't sound clean, but you know what I meant, right?) Then we have to use a Fire Gun (Yeah, baby!) and immerse it in HCl (Hydrochloric Acid for those of you who don't remember!) and then buff it up, cleanse it, steam it, file it, etc etc... The Papier Mache Workshop was coolio too...and I can make these super rock-hard bangles and accessories with it!

I got a double-pierce on my ears this week...Finally! :)

I wish I had some more money cuz there's tons of shopping I want to do ( some clothes, accessories, PERFUME, Books - Ransom my Heart, Gifts for my folks, Converse Ballets, an iPod), besides I wanna get a copy of The Lost Symbol to read when I go to Saudi for 3 weeks. I want to make the most of my free time now that there will be little of it once I'd get a job I love doing! So here's to more writing (UTV, Tinkle, a Book), more creating stuff, more workshops, more plays, adventures (trips to Bandra, Town, Bangalore-Nandini) and the works!

P.S. I have this crazy-ass mission to make 5 new continental friends...don't know how that's going to happen! But let's see...

P.P.S Also I've got to solve the Rubik's Cube when I go home this time.

Ah, Life, take me somewhere nice, please, I already like the direction you are blowing me in....

Haley's Comet

It’s at times when you think that you couldn’t get more bummed out than you already are that something good happens just to tell you that somehow somewhere an unseen force was either paying the closest attention to you or looking out for you so that you wouldn't get hurt. And suddenly, with a rush of feelings, you realize that nothing could be better than your life how it is now, because if you weren’t late and you caught that early train, you couldn’t have known it would crash as you were rushing to work or that when you slipped on a banana peel it was only to avoid a fire on the bus that you normally take to work or simply yet, you never thought that when everything in your life was horribly wrong and you’re jobless, love-forsaken; there are people and incidents to remind you that you’re here and on a day like 09.09.09 which is pretty darned fantastic because it’s one of those things that never happen again. Yeah, that’s pretty special and unique when it happens to me. It’s just a date ultimately but we want to make such days special, may be cuz it’s easier to remember or it’s cool (which it is) or I don’t know, I’m sure you can think of plenty other reasons. Well, my reason to feel this way (happy and slightly peaceful) has been since yesterday. Maybe Miley Cyrus’s Party in the USA transpired some of that positivity; it really is a great mellow, breezy song that you could probably take along when you take a late-night drive. And may be because some things didn’t seem as stupid as they would have before like receiving help from a stranger because you just asked or when a friend helps you because you asked and does it because they do care when you think you haven’t been that close. What’s even more surprising is when a project you worked on really hard but think of it as a futile attempt is appreciated as a work of art (another article of mine got published: ), or so you could say. I mean, I really can’t think of any metaphors for this! And then, finally, finally you discover that something you deserve and have been truly waiting for isn’t stuck in limbo like you presumed it to be. It’s on the road and heading to you!

P.S. Did you know that limbo is also a West Indian dance in which the dancer bends back and passes repeatedly under a gradually lowered horizontal bar? I didn’t. I do now. And that I think of it now, I might have seen this on TV too. I can’t be too sure. Oh, well. Toodles.

La Vie

You know what I think everyone should know and learn...is that you should never read too much into anything or question anything that once made you happy and once made you smile. Because it leads to regret, hurt and ill-feelings towards that person. I mean, whatever. Past is past. Forward is forward. You deal with so many things. No one needs to figure out everything or unlock the psyche of every nano thing. By thinking more and more into why it happened or how it happened, all that crap can do one no good! My Blog sounds pretty preachy,don't it?I'm just trying to learn from my experiences with different things.

Tomorrow,I have an interview for the post of a Content Writer for wcities.com. I wouldn't mind taking it up since it should be fun. It's new and it's an experience!

As I was saying, you really got to let go..it's easy for me to say. I mean, I'm scared of heights...but someday, when I get the chance to, I would love to jump off a cliff and free fall into the deepest blue...Just even thinking about it gives me the most awesome feeling. I would be scared to, but so bloody psyched just to do it! That's what life should be, it should amaze you and thrill you each time. Not just by big things, even the little things can count for a whole huge feeling of psychitude.

Like when I spot Orion in the sky, I always get excited, especially pointing it out to my friends or people and telling them how he got there. It's like the feeling is always new, no matter how many times, I've seen it. It would be great if things were always perfect and happy but it's the mistakes one learns from and also the ones that make you cringe but hope to learn better from. C'est la vie!