Questions

Are stars spirits of dead people smiling down on you? Why isn't moving on a speedy process? Why do we very often than not,cling to the past? Why do you get messages from phone services and not from people you wish messaged you? Why do we think what is not? Why is a choice to remain single not respected for exactly what it is? Why is there a weird taste in my mouth? Are they looking at me? Are we just friends or more? Is it wrong to love your own space? Have we met before? Will he notice me if I wear this t-shirt? Is the end near? Do Aliens exist? Will I go to Egypt? Are there ghosts around me that I can't see,as I sit and type this? Should I give that lecher a piece of my mind? Shall I offer her a hanky? Should I help him? Will I really never be married? Do you think I'll meet God someday? Why hasn't Seventeen come out with an issue this month-is it a mystery? Will I play the guitar? Will my phone come back to life? Isn't nothing something? Who am I? Will I get the job? Does he think I'm pretty? Is she gonna be okay? What is your name? Are u reading my blog right now? What shall I have for dinner? What are you thinking about? What is it that you really wish for? Have you been to the Bermuda Triangle? Would you like to jump into a foamy sea and feel free? Will you call me when you reach? Is summer here already? Have you been to Disney Land? Have you surfed a wave? Does he like me? Do you think the edge of the sea has some thing sad about it-like it's going off into another world? Did I spill sauce on my shirt again? What if you saw me across the road and didn’t know it was me? What if you met me before but just can’t remember? Will we ever meet the people whose faces we’ve never seen before except in dreams? Why do I still think of you and wish the best for you? When you make a wish on an eyelash and blow it away, does it travel into a parallel universe? Can you answer a question with a question? Tu comprend? How are we so different from our parents? Why am I like this? Why? Did I lock the door when I left the house? Do you wonder where you'll be five minutes from now?

Dev D.

Have you watched Dev D. yet? It is a brilliant movie, I couldn’t stop raving about it the day I watched it. It is amazingly made, the pop-art feel of the film is very nice to watch. Vibrant use of Color, Beautiful shots, simple yet amazing flow of the story... It really is a great movie. Truly bowled over with Anurag Kashyap’s direction and Abhay Deol, whom I never thought to look at or pay attention to before. The actress playing Paro does justice to her bit in the film too. The other girl in the film playing Chanda undoubtedly is very young in the fim, and her child-like humour infused with wittiness makes it great to appreciate on screen. This movie started off with dark undertones but the very surprising and almost unpredictable end made it even more beautiful to applaud such a film. I’ve been proud of Hindi movies like Dil Chahta Hai, Rang de Basanti and Taare Zameen Par but for now, this one truly takes the cake and deserves all the praise. Dev D. is a must-watch for lovers of creativity because it is not just the story, it is more the way it has been executed, the way it’s been transpired to the eyes of us, the viewers. I want to watch it again! I’m definitely gonna pick up a dvd of it when it comes out. The songs are also different and make for easy listening. 'Paayaliya' and 'Aankh Micholi' are my favorites. Aankh Micholi almost has a haunting feel to it, take a listen and you'll see. The lyrics of ‘Emotional Attyachar’ are hilarious! :)

Black and White!

I just drank a whole mug of green tea…Bleh! It was terrible. I had a really strange dream last night, I can’t remember it all except that it had bits faintly related to the Vatican and the Devil! It was quite bizarre and there were these African folks too in the dream who were pissed with our family for not following the Devil or something like that. There were these weird yellow-eyed goats in the dream too and immobile gorges of water which were slightly muddy. Strange, huh? It didn’t make sense at all. I’m not trying to decipher it but I wonder how it even formed a base in my sub-conscious to structure out so randomly because it was never on my mind. It’s at times like this, I do wish I had my sister’s Dream Dictionary to refer to. Or that I had a Personal Dream Analyst. It sounds like a cool profession by far.

I’m excited because I was waiting for a friend yesterday and decided to kill time (no wait, that’s not right because I love Bookstores of all kinds, anyway…so the word would be ‘spend’ not kill) by browsing through Crossword. I came across all sorts of exciting books and the Twilight Series(The Next Most Awesome Series after Harry Potter!- It’s about a normal girl who falls in love with a Vampire) had already disappeared of the shelves, I’ve already read all and have them as text files on my computer but they are a book series I’d want to own in the tangible kind. Yeah, so anyway, they’d all been gone. I did find ‘Unaccustomed Earth’ by Jhumpa Lahiri (I love her work!) but too expensive for me to pick up so I’ll wait until I have oodles of cash to stock my shelves with my favorite authors. I did bump into this book called ‘A Girl Like Me’ and the cover Illustration did attract me, I felt it was something like I would design (hopefully, I get to do that very soon when I’m blessed with a similar-sounding job), and the summary further prompted me to buy the book because I knew I would really enjoy it. I’m pretty much a sucker for ‘shy/artsy/awkward-girl-meets-cool-guy-and-they-fall-in-love’ kind of crap! So yeah, I picked it up, it was 250 Rs. and I had it gift-wrapped : ) and I signed to me! It’s my Birthday present to myself! Yay!
I did forget to look for the tenth installment in the Princess Diaries Series, however, I just thought of it now. I don’t think age should restrict you to what you read. Reading is fun and always enlightening and if you like a book that kids normally read, that doesn’t make you stupid or less intelligent. There are different books and different people. You are free to read what you like. Why ignore that tempting copy of Harry Potter & The Chamber of Secrets because your kids read it? You see it, it interests you, always do read it. Sorry, I’m just very and truly passionate about reading. It’s such a nice thing to do : ) and makes you immensely happy!

Over-Thinking: Boon and Bane!

I just feel so very blah today. You know, how on somedays you feel as though you're on top of the world and nothing can break you? Well I feel the opposite of that today. Honesty and being your true self to whoever it is, I really value but it's just that not everyone gets that or thinks you ought be that way to brush past the conniving wolves of this world and make your mark in this world. It's so hard to move on and be pleasant about things, to move forward especially when your mind clearly remains stagnant in troubled waters...I keep trying to do it everyday but somehow I crash recklessly backward into false dreams or rather beaten hope. It makes me feel bad, makes me feel so disappointed and the next moment, the smallest of things can me happy, me(like seeing Lola Kutty in public or someone telling me my phone-wire braiding is really cool) and I can really be the happiest person on that day. I just don't like feeling this other sick way because it makes me tear up and negativity is really like a poison, it seeps through your system gradually, corrupts your thinking and kills you instantly once the process is complete. Hey, writing is very therapeutic, like talking to a friend or talking to yourself. It helps to clear your mind at least for a teensy while, it's a clean feeling but sometimes the hurt just lies there stuck in those impossible-to-reach nooks and crannies until the sharp and clever point of a toothpick comes along and fishes out the annoying tiny sliver of something wedged between your teeth!

Sunshine makes me smile! :)

The way you feel when the Sun shines in your eyes is amazing...it makes you feel alive,cheery,bright...it feels like love. I cut my hair from this place called Harsh today, it's getting more and more popular here in Mumbai and I have to say I'm happy with my hair! :) I feel more positive than I've been in a year, I've made new friends, still kept in touch with the old ones and yeah, it feels great to be alive, to sit here typing infinitely again. I haven't written anything in ages. So this post might be a little topsy-turvy but hey,yeah at least I've written! A new start, a fresh beginning! It makes me think of my friend, Ashwita, she's the kind of person who invents words that resembles sounds you would make when you're happy, sad, energetic, whatever!! She brings out the best in me! Truly. Or in anybody. She's the kind of person who inspires, learns, is very wise for her age and somehow she is very child-like as well!
Hmmmm.... My eyes are burning and I'm sort of sleepy but I feel like I should write more, share more. This is so random, I have never written so scattery(I know that's not a word, but hey you've adapted to Muggles so this shouldn't be so hard!) on a public forum before! It's kind of funny, really, makes me laugh...

26/11/2008

I can’t believe this happened… again. But then again, it’s been happening so often that some of us have even grown numb to it all. How can this be? How has Man grown into this seething monster? We are progressing technologically and urbanization is way off the highest rung of the ladder but we seem to have forgotten how it all started. Man has truly become man’s greatest enemy. We are from the same race. You can’t pick who you are but you can choose who you become. You can be better. You can be a human being. Isn’t it enough that we live? We talk, we speak, we walk…We breathe. How is it that we have grown so indifferent to the needs of our own fellow mates? How the fuck can you take a life when you have never lived your own? How can you profess that you are superior by spilling the blood of an innocent? How? Who the fuck are you? No one tells you to be any different. No religion tells you that. Religion is something man-made, however. God is One. Hell, we are One. So why do you keep trying to out-race your peers? What have we turned into? We are here for a reason. To live and let live. This is our home, our life, our cities, our planet. You have no right to destroy what is everyone else’s. Violence isn’t an answer but justice is. We will fight back. Doesn’t it make you cringe to know what you have done? Have you never felt pain or hurt that it becomes so cold-blooded for you to cause it to others? Do you even know how stupid you sound? How callous this is? How can you be? How can you be? But what I realize is no amount of wondering or asking is going to change what’s happened. You are our hope, that’s what makes it sadder. Look into the mirror and focus on your eyes. What do you see? You, we… are the future. It has to stop. This second on.

You may not see, but for that you must truly believe.

I think one of the most difficult things to do is to face your fear. For me, it's always been the same, scared of meeting people, of speaking publicly and of not being successful in what I set out to do. And much of it stems from feeling inadequate at times. And well, facing one's fear has a thrill about it yet you need that final push. Like I really wanna bungee-jump off a cliff someday but someone needs to push me. I might be all geared up in the suit and everything but I need that motivation, the belief that I can go on, do it and mostly, by myself. It's only then when you feel a sense of deep satisfaction.
I just hope I get a job when I come back in January, I really wanna work with Art...I want to design it, create it and I know I have the potential to do so. To graphically design prints for paper or magazines or even ads.... I even enjoy writing but now, after learning the technical aspects of designing which I was otherwise only good at hand, I wanna explore that aspect and take it up as a career. It's what I've always wanted.So we've established that happiness is
a prime drive for moving forward in life. It's just that sometimes I'd also really
like to show the people especially those who didn't/don't believe in me that
I can do it too and here I am, in your face, on the highest pinnacle of self-
actualization! I'm sure you have felt that competition too, to show people that
you can be the darned best as well. It's not easy but it's definitely not that hard.

I'm fairly creative but I'm still a little timid in my ways. That's why my work needs to speak for me sometimes. The hardest part is what you are or what you will be no one can see unless they see you as a bold, outgoing person. And I am the total opposite. I'm very shy and completely reserved. I just hope all this disappears and I get a job I truly deserve and want to work my ass off for. That'll be the drive to push me forward when I know I'm doing something I love.
:)
Hey, hold on to your dreams, never throw them away.....you know you can make them come true.

Hmmm :-/

I know I can and it's okay...but still what if I'm not supposed to? It's not a crime but would it be so wrong to? But anyway I already do.... I don't want to set my hopes up again... We're really good friends but....well....ah...I'm confused...and also happy... I might be just imagining it. It'd be great if it were for real. And it's been on my mind since a few days now... Shit! I'm sorry you don't know what I'm talking about but I can't say anything here - it's too public.


But I hope something cool happens! Crossing my fingers :-)



Aaaaargh!!! I'm going to kill Val.


I am an ass. I mean, it's kind of stupid. And X does not see me that way. We're just friends. I should totally shut up now. 


SHUTUPSHUTUPSHUTUPRO!!!!