26/11/2008

I can’t believe this happened… again. But then again, it’s been happening so often that some of us have even grown numb to it all. How can this be? How has Man grown into this seething monster? We are progressing technologically and urbanization is way off the highest rung of the ladder but we seem to have forgotten how it all started. Man has truly become man’s greatest enemy. We are from the same race. You can’t pick who you are but you can choose who you become. You can be better. You can be a human being. Isn’t it enough that we live? We talk, we speak, we walk…We breathe. How is it that we have grown so indifferent to the needs of our own fellow mates? How the fuck can you take a life when you have never lived your own? How can you profess that you are superior by spilling the blood of an innocent? How? Who the fuck are you? No one tells you to be any different. No religion tells you that. Religion is something man-made, however. God is One. Hell, we are One. So why do you keep trying to out-race your peers? What have we turned into? We are here for a reason. To live and let live. This is our home, our life, our cities, our planet. You have no right to destroy what is everyone else’s. Violence isn’t an answer but justice is. We will fight back. Doesn’t it make you cringe to know what you have done? Have you never felt pain or hurt that it becomes so cold-blooded for you to cause it to others? Do you even know how stupid you sound? How callous this is? How can you be? How can you be? But what I realize is no amount of wondering or asking is going to change what’s happened. You are our hope, that’s what makes it sadder. Look into the mirror and focus on your eyes. What do you see? You, we… are the future. It has to stop. This second on.

You may not see, but for that you must truly believe.

I think one of the most difficult things to do is to face your fear. For me, it's always been the same, scared of meeting people, of speaking publicly and of not being successful in what I set out to do. And much of it stems from feeling inadequate at times. And well, facing one's fear has a thrill about it yet you need that final push. Like I really wanna bungee-jump off a cliff someday but someone needs to push me. I might be all geared up in the suit and everything but I need that motivation, the belief that I can go on, do it and mostly, by myself. It's only then when you feel a sense of deep satisfaction.
I just hope I get a job when I come back in January, I really wanna work with Art...I want to design it, create it and I know I have the potential to do so. To graphically design prints for paper or magazines or even ads.... I even enjoy writing but now, after learning the technical aspects of designing which I was otherwise only good at hand, I wanna explore that aspect and take it up as a career. It's what I've always wanted.So we've established that happiness is
a prime drive for moving forward in life. It's just that sometimes I'd also really
like to show the people especially those who didn't/don't believe in me that
I can do it too and here I am, in your face, on the highest pinnacle of self-
actualization! I'm sure you have felt that competition too, to show people that
you can be the darned best as well. It's not easy but it's definitely not that hard.

I'm fairly creative but I'm still a little timid in my ways. That's why my work needs to speak for me sometimes. The hardest part is what you are or what you will be no one can see unless they see you as a bold, outgoing person. And I am the total opposite. I'm very shy and completely reserved. I just hope all this disappears and I get a job I truly deserve and want to work my ass off for. That'll be the drive to push me forward when I know I'm doing something I love.
:)
Hey, hold on to your dreams, never throw them away.....you know you can make them come true.

Hmmm :-/

I know I can and it's okay...but still what if I'm not supposed to? It's not a crime but would it be so wrong to? But anyway I already do.... I don't want to set my hopes up again... We're really good friends but....well....ah...I'm confused...and also happy... I might be just imagining it. It'd be great if it were for real. And it's been on my mind since a few days now... Shit! I'm sorry you don't know what I'm talking about but I can't say anything here - it's too public.


But I hope something cool happens! Crossing my fingers :-)



Aaaaargh!!! I'm going to kill Val.


I am an ass. I mean, it's kind of stupid. And X does not see me that way. We're just friends. I should totally shut up now. 


SHUTUPSHUTUPSHUTUPRO!!!!

Have you?

Um....Have any of you ever felt a vast sense of emptiness when you finish reading a great book or watching a really good movie? It's difficult to put to paper but it feels so strange when that happens to me. I feel a huge gaping hole (okay, that would be pretty horrific) in my chest or something funny within my insides. Like today, I watched the last episode in the season finale of Friends and yeah, I've watched it a million times but that didn't stop me from feeling sad. I remember when I saw Rang de Basanti for the first time, I couldn't stop crying for a week worrying about my future and what we, the youth are really doing. Crazy, huh? I don't even know the purpose of this entry. Sometimes we type with the sole reason of making a point but then you can't and it just plain sucks!


Anyway I was talking about how one feels after reading or watching something great. What a great influence or feeling that another person (maybe the author or the director or protagonist) who you might never meet or know can have on you, a complete stranger. I really should try to stop talking profound when I can't, especially right now. I have a test tomorrow that I need to study for! Toodles.

My Crafts!

Being very much inclined with color and obviously,art,I really hope to have my own Craft Store or Art Store where I can display my creative wares-earrings,keychains,anklets etc. And now may be,I finally can because Kala Ghoda is coming up in October.....Yahoooo!!!! KG's always got crazy creative talent.


I draw my timely inspirations now and then from AWESOME places like Dhoop(it's at 15th Road,Khar- you gotta check it out!),The Bombay Store,Hobby Idea and various other cool exhibitions(Kala Ghoda-The best!).
Here's some of my work:








I really, truly hope to do this professionally some day.... :) It's one of my many dreams.

La Vie

You know what I think everyone should know and learn...is that you should never read too much into anything or question anything that once made you happy and once made you smile. Because it leads to regret, hurt and ill-feelings towards that person. I mean, whatever. Past is past. Forward is forward. You deal with so many things. No one needs to figure out everything or unlock the psyche of every nano thing. By thinking more and more into why it happened or how it happened, all that crap can do one no good! My Blog sounds pretty preachy,don't it?I'm just trying to learn from my experiences with different things.

Tomorrow,I have an interview for the post of a Content Writer for wcities.com. I wouldn't mind taking it up since it should be fun. It's new and it's an experience!

As I was saying, you really got to let go..it's easy for me to say. I mean, I'm scared of heights...but someday, when I get the chance to, I would love to jump off a cliff and free fall into the deepest blue...Just even thinking about it gives me the most awesome feeling. I would be scared to, but so bloody psyched just to do it! That's what life should be, it should amaze you and thrill you each time. Not just by big things, even the little things can count for a whole huge feeling of psychitude.

Like when I spot Orion in the sky, I always get excited, especially pointing it out to my friends or people and telling them how he got there. It's like the feeling is always new, no matter how many times, I've seen it. It would be great if things were always perfect and happy but it's the mistakes one learns from and also the ones that make you cringe but hope to learn better from. C'est la vie!

Karma

I suddenly feel basked by good karma....Maybe I felt a sense of peace that Buddha transpired to me through the tatoo I saw on Tao's hand. It's the most beautiful tatoo I've ever seen. It's so awesome and deep and intriguing. I mean, when you look at it first, it's a side profile of Buddha when he was a monk and on the inner hand or forehand, It's the full frontal of The Buddha sitting...the shading done is just beautiful. However, if you look deeper into the tatoo, you will see a third Buddha hidden in the many shades of the folds of his robes(Look at the second pic closely and you will see him, too....a bigger side profile of his face)...Awesome. I love creativity. It's something deep,peaceful and beautiful. Creativity doesn't necessarily have to be related to the arts. There are different forms it can be born in. I feel so happy and pleased. :) I also ran into so many people I haven't seen in a long time yesterday...was a lot of fun....I like to believe that I have been cleansed....pure...rejuvenated.When you realize something inside of you,it reflects on your outter sense and being. You feel lighter and happier.I also feel like as if I can relate to all this inner-being and aura and crap...It's always mesmerized me....aura,sense of being,mythology,tranquility....Ooooh!!!It soothes the soul like nothing or no one else.I almost feel like I need nothing. That's an awesome feeling!Just move forward.It's easy to say it but if you do, your light becomes clearer and brighter to you.

Wish

I love looking for stars in an inky sky
I wish my dreams to touch a rainbow high
I like Sunshine
It makes me smile
Vanishes away my troubles…just for a while.
I wish for a wish
A dream that sparkles
Life is life
No matter what we say
And I hope you have a lovely day!

This is something I totally forgot about that I typed and forgot to post it::

27-07-08
It has finally begun to rain normally. I’m happy but I actually hate the rains. I just knew if it didn’t rain, everything would get royally screwed up. It’d mean more weather changes, an increase in the level of global warming (not that we have a really in-check level right now), farmers committing suicides et cetera. I don’t want the world to end! Already the Mayans have already predicted that the world would end on 20-12-2012. I wonder if it’s just a play on numbers. Remember when 2000 was supposed to be the end of the world? However, at this time, it doesn’t seem so absurd. At the rate that we are going, the end of the world seems pretty plausible. Some of us are still taking it lightly. I, for one do sometimes. I waste a lot of water while washing, brushing my teeth etc. I do throw off my garbage in bins but being sure that just a few of us do it. How is it gonna help? We are slowly destroying the earth in our quest for material things.


I don’t know why I am like this. I slowly begin to disconnect from people for a while. It’s not that I am a loner but at the same time, I have my friends, very few BEST friends and I can’t be best friends with everyone nor do I have just one best friend, I guess. However, I constantly feel the need to disconnect from my friends for a while to take a breather. A splash of fresh air, which not most people get me for. It’s difficult explaining and I really don’t feel the need to. It’s scary at times when I have no idea what the hell I’m doing. And sometimes, I’m just at peace.