Parchment Paper

I find beauty mixed with sadness to be a beautiful thing. I've never been one to forget easily. Once you're in my system, it's painful to cut you out. I can't tell you how I feel. It's strange and foreign. Do we not know each other anymore? It's like a poem, written once with passion but as you begin to write more poems, the special one lies forgotten... The page on which it's been written turns yellow, the black ink fades away, there's a splatter of teardrop over a line or two. It's like the lines from Collide, Even the best fall down sometimes, even the wrong words seem to rhyme. Out of the doubt that fills my mind, I somehow find that you and I collide. You've been on my mind. I never was any good at pretending or playing games. I'm sorry that I do but I just do. I shouldn't have to think of this whole nine months as the Nice To Know You song by Incubus now, should I? Farewell.

Choices

Food or Sex? Love or Money? Satisfying Job or Well-Paying Non-related job? Good Guy-friend or Boyfriend? Leo or Libra? Hot or Cold? Summer or Winter? Fast-Paced Life or slow death? Smiles or tears? Writing or Designing or Both? Answering or questioning? Harry Potter or Twilight? To sleep or be awake? Save money or shop it off? The Good Guy or the Bad Guy? Permanent or Temporary? To listen to music or try to make it? To love or give it up? To be taught or to have experienced? Sunshine or the Starry Sky? To tell someone you miss them or miss them silently? To cry when you watch sad movies or make fun of someone else as they watch it and cry? To cry or bottle it up? To be strong or to break down? To be far away or just a block away? To be driven around or to drive? To hear someone else's heartbeat or to feel yours thudding in your chest? To permanently ink a memory or to bind it to your brain? To hold on or to let go? To hide or be visible? To hug or be hugged? First Impression or Last? Letters or E-mails? Trance or Alternative Rock? To be left alone or cared for? To read or to buy a book for someone else? To jump in to the unknown or wait for life to guide you? The Sun or The Moon? Hugo Boss Orange or YSL Elle? Night or Day? Best Friend or Diary? Keeping Secrets or Telling them? To love or be loved? Silence or Sound? An empty room or a crowded head? Mortality or Immortality? Singledom or Commitment? Mustang or Cruiser? To cut off or be cut off from? Old friends or new? Milkshakes or Sodas? iPod or Walkman? Vanilla or Chocolate-Chip? Hate or Grudge? Chick Flick or Horror Movie? Paris or NYC? Bombay or NY? Subway Trains or Indian Trains? Rainy day or summery afternoon? Glittering Sand or Water?