Fate

She is pretty

She is pretty hot

She's quite sweet

I see the prize you've got.

But why couldn't you tell me?

Why play me for a fool?

I feel so lost,

I guess you were a tool.

Though, tell me something

Tell me true.

Did you not like me?

Lie, but I thought I knew you.

It Isn't Time That's Passing

Remember the long ago when we lay together

In a pain of tenderness and counted

Our dreams: long summer afternoons

When the whistling-thrush released

A deep sweet secret on the trembling air;

Blackbird on the wing, bird of forest shadows,

Black rose in the long ago summer,

This was your song:

It isn't time that's passing by,

It is you and I.

-

Ruskin Bond

At Work

The internet is slow

But gtalk is not

My patience is wearing

I wonder what salary she has got.

I need a breather

I need an out

I hope to God

I never contract gout.

I miss college

I miss my friends

I miss the tapri

Around the bend(s).

HER

Closure comes from really strange places...or from strangers. Okay, actually I'm not even sure if it was closure (because for so long I've been looking for it) but it felt nice in the craziest way. I met her yesterday. HER!!!! She's really sweet, you know and everything. Maybe they are happy together and it's okay, it really is. What I did realise is that it's for me to decide. Not anyone else. Not my friends. Not him. Just me. Feeling good about nothing at all. It all happened on my last day there. I'm not insane that I think it's so cool that it happened, right? I got so excited after meeting her. I knew who she was and never met her before because of the 'circumstances' but I do think she's nice. I hope she's happy. I guess this saga finally ended. My mind really hopes it did end. It's a new chapter from here on. :-)

P.S. How funny is it that it ended exactly when and where it began? A whole year. Mixed feelings. But it's over. It has to be.

Should I Cave In?

Friends with BlackBerry phones:

1. Lester
2. Emily
3. V
4. Joshua
5. Laila
6. Chica
7. Franco
8. Michelle
9. Das
10. Crazy Eyes
11. KC
12. Bhamgara
13. Ted
14. Craig
15. Mr. Italiano
16. Nina
17. Shell
18. Anky
19. Ali
20. Sherwin
21. Toshiya
22. Shy
23. Clint
24. Sam
25. TC
26. Amber

Friends with other kinds (slightly cooler than BBs)

1. Nischal (Android)
2. Julie
3. Sneha
4. um...me?

This is not a Haiku

Summer is warm,

Summer is lazy.

Wind blew into my eyes,

and the vision got hazy.

I feel like running in the grass

Wet mud squishing under my toes

I'll pick up an earthworm

To make soup for my foes.

- Roanna Fernandes

Haha

Till date, the funniest conversation I've ever had with my college class-mate Jonathan Fernandes (this was after our class trip to Mahabhaleshwar):

Jonathan (in some kind of Americano, really slick accent): So, did you guys like fuck around?
Me (on account of not understanding his accent clearly): Huh?

J: Did you guys like fuck around?
Me: Um. What? (I still didn't get what he said)

J: So did you guys like fuck around?
Me: Um. No. Did you?

J: Yeaaahh!
Me: *awkward smile*

Haha.