2010

burrp! Flicker. Books. Flash. Zombieland. Love. French Wedding. Blaze. Love ended. Ordinary birthday. 23. March Madness. Sneha, the head-girl. Sam's wedding. Leia/Lakshmi. Shiny Pink Girl. Famous five again. Memories. Zach. Coupling. Love began. New boss. New responsibilities. New ring. Bandra Love. Michael Moscovitz. Red velvet cupcakes. Coffee. Hope. Love again. Flash. Late-night texts. Flicker. Flash. Day before independence. C's Birthday. Zara. Hands. Leonardo DiCaprio. American. Crazy eyes. Paintings. Loyalty. Reviews. More hope. Accessorize. Home. Flirting. Mr. Italiano. Libra-Leo Love. facebook story. Gloria Jean's. Bombay ducks. Writing. Midnight calls. Orders. Shree. Coasters. Art. Fashion. Bloody Mary. October. K. Birthdays. Danny! Truth. Change. Disappointment. Hope. Crash. Lies. Haroun. Hurt. fake Accessorize. Love. Hope? Ruby! Christmas. Posterous. Tears. Gone. New Year's. Over. Finito!

Grey Matter

She comes home, she cries. She doesn't see anymore. She does see things but right now, emotion clouds up her mind and thoughts. She misses what used to be. It's hard, it sucks out pain from within her and it makes her hurt bad.

Well, that's over. It's almost like it never happened. It started out as a beautiful dream and horribly metamorphosed into a nightmare. And since you try really hard to forget the nightmares (they sort of fade away, really), the dream lay forgotten too. It's not meant to be touched. You can leave it be, just like that. Destiny. It's not meant to be tampered with or tarnished. There were no broken pieces, nothing to collect or sweep away. That was one of the best parts. And slowly but surely, the dust particles around will begin to settle once more.

Mistletoe & Holly

So...I'm pretty excited about the weekend (can't say why here). Oh yeah, and Tweety's showing me a cool new way to convert my domain. I want a cooler and cleaner design template. I can't wait to do some cool work for real on that front (I'm trying to divert my mind it's not happening. It's like OMFG, he is so hot).

And how, how, how the F do I hear that song from so far away? Am I insane? Are my ears too keyed up for it? Like it's an in-built unforgettable sound. I don't hear the laughter anymore though. In other news, my hair has grown long, not strong, but long. Also, the Christmas spirit is settling in and I feel happy. Let it snow! Anyway, I tried to, I did but yeah, I can't let go. I know I'm crazy and silly but I really just can't. But it's okay, that's just who I am. I can't change that. Merry Christmas, ye merry folk!

List For December ♥

December is one of my favourite months in the year. A big reason is because of Christmas and there's something in the air that always keeps me smiling (sparkly Christmas cider dust, perhaps?). That and the fact that Christmas is a magical time, you feel like spreading the ♥ more than usual et cetera. Plus the weather in Bombay is so good (yeah baby, 19 degrees and it's dropping lower). It's like I want to go outside in a vest and catch a cold. I'm literally doing that. I mean, I just waxed; what do you expect? I can't let it all go to waste. Economics, you see? So yeah, I get to wear my cool new clothes and I'm really feeling excited about this whole new 'fashion' aspect. I suddenly seem to wanna dress up well, have a definitive style rather just dress up boho and of the beach-bum variety kinds. Okay, so I really also thought I'd get inked this month on account of the season, the time and everything else but not sure. Funds are moving toward the negative half of my scale. Anyway, here's a to-do list for myself, for the month of December to be accomplished (I'll strike out the ones I complete as soon I can)!

1. Complete POP snowman
2. Find true love ♥ (sure, sure, why not? That's just the sarcastic me talking but yes, I really wanna)!
3. Paint TT's coasters X 2
4. Wear new clothes to work
5. Get reindeer antlers
6. Christmas greetings for office colleagues
7. Gift for Emily & Chloey
8. Read: Haroun & The Sea Of Stories
9. Make funky necklace with silver beads
10. Find craft-box
11. Wash the Converse-like ballets
12. Write a Tinkle story
13. Sell Fallen & Keep The Change
14. Make out with a hottie under the mistletoe!
15. Try to make eggnog with Mr. D
16. Make four Christmas ornaments

P.S. I'll add more to the list. I know I'm forgetting a lot of things so yeah!

Water

I feel this very deep and strong connection to the ocean, at times. Like I feel like a sea-creature or a mermaid. Sometimes I like to be strange, I mean, I am weird already but still. What if my inner-soul is that of a mermaid's? Like Ariel (how cool, right?) The first thing I ever wanted to be and for the longest time around was an astronaut. Then I wanted to be a scientist, too. Not making sense, am I? I'm trying my best to complete three articles whose deadlines are freakily close but what am I doing instead? That's right. I'm blogging. I want to be at Gloria Jean's, sip my cappuccino and finish reading The Dark Reunion (The Vampire Diaries). I have to say the books are quite interesting a read, as compared to the Twilight series. Plus, it's written by L.J.Smith who also wrote The Forbidden Game (one of my very favourite books).

It might not be of a direct explanation but I like this quote,"Don't beat yourself up about it. Acquisitions are like dating; they just weren't that into you. And you chasing after them would not have helped. Deals fall apart, that's what they do. I've had deals fall through even after everything had been agreed on, including price. If they didn't have a binding pricesheet in front of you, then you weren't very close. Not to mention all that could still go wrong during due diligence. In the bad old days of Microsoft, they would often use the due diligence process to learn/steal the key technology of their targets, then scuttle the deal. If you did anything wrong at all, it might have been disclosing too much about your future development plans and trying too hard to please Google. Next time, and given your talent there probably will be a next time, you might want to keep your cards closer to the vest."

It makes a lot of sense when you think of it, mais non? There are always going to be things amiss in life but you gotta learn to accept that life is more than who you are. Much as I, very often, try to push it at the back of my mind. I know it to be true. Who'd think that picture would be all to make me get over this? Haha, I am pretty lame. Do any of you guys know anyone working for Vogue Magazine? Please pass the word along or give me deets. Gracias.

Silver Lining

There are some things that you just can't explain. That's alright, it's life. Once you stop learning or experiencing new things, the journey is over. I'm okay. It was just a phase. I can't forget or replace if I tried. You're still alright. To new things.

P.S. I bought some really neat stuff from the causeway today: a cool summer boho dress (teal), pink kolhapuris, a robot necklace & an Eiffel Tower necklace (I'll put up pics later - I am very happy with my purchases - super cool). I met C and B today; they make me happy, they had me smiling. C made me some chocolate pudding; I love him for him! :-) Also, I still believe that whatever you do, you gotta do it passionately. Yeah, yeah, I know there aren't always gonna be happy endings but the fact of just being pure at heart and loving the feeling, it just makes all the difference. ℒℴѵℯ is a pretty cool thing, there's time for it. Right place, right time, all that schmooze. Not sure if I used the word in the right context, just check with urbandictionary to be sure.

Fire

Fire is pretty painful. Even the slightest lick of flame can cause you enough pain to make you wanna jump. And it did. But at the same time, a growing numbness filled me. It was like my brain had been extracted from its skull cavity; I couldn't see, I couldn't think. What's strange is that my vision didn't blur, everything was crystal clear. I was just sort of there, remaining in the moment, left behind. I felt that it would crush me but it just bathed me in a new light. Yeah, I did die. I died, alright. There's nothing left to say.